A bad day from the start

Its 10:30 in the morning and its already been a bad day. The cats woke me up at 6 and kept waking me up, so I finally got up around 7. I haven't eaten breakfast because I'm sick to my stomach again. I log onto gmail and theres an email from deadlei. Shes mad at me! I'm sorry if I was trying to be nice and see if we could record another night since shes always raiding on mondays.

And now she tells me how she hates that i'm doing everything. I've offered to let her record, and edit, and everything and she doesn't accept! and then she says 'well i want to be the leader' and thats fine. I could use the load off but I do like doing this. I don't want one of us to have to be the leader I want us to work together, as friends, but she doesn't feel that way so now I ahve to talk to her.

She says she wants more guests I told her a while back we could have her friend on and she never gave me a date. She says she wants to let other people help with the show I alreayd told her yes, hell I told someone to do the lore for us because they wanted to! I feel like me and her don't sit and talk enough for her to even know whats going on. She thinks that I just want to say 'ok were donig this and lets go' and i'll take the lead and be done but thats not what I want.

Ok fine, I wrote her an email telling her she could have everything she wanted and that I agree with her. Gee this sounds like a re-run of andrew. Andrew fights with me, i agree, and he says i'm wrong even though i'm on his side. Thats what I feel like.

To make matters worse everything on ER is all screwed up with the AIE guild and now i'm wishing i had made myself stay up last night instead of going to bed but I mean I'm working, I'm dancing, I've got school, and somewhere in there is WoW. By 10 at night I'm in bed exhausted.

What really doesn't help is that I do not currently have my depression under control. Today I just want to go crawl in bed and pull the cover over my head and not come out. THESE DAYS SUCK. This will go away. It is only a bad day, it is only temporary. But none the less I am still depressed and everything is crashing around me and I need it to wait a few more days!